Personally, I am relieved to be able to relax my mind a little bit. I wrote in my journal this morning that it was only as I started to relax that I realized how stressed out I had been over the last couple of months. I tend to get pretty worn down by the end of April and I think that this year was worse than normal because I was sort of "holding my breath" until sabbatical and didn't do a very good job of taking breaks at other times. My prayer now is that I can figure out what it looks like to have healthy habits for emotional and spiritual health in the future. I struggle to detach from the pastoral problems that I engage with. To some degree it is necessary to feel the burdens of others and I probably rank high on an "empathy scale." But the down side is that it can feel hard to turn it off and relax.
Perhaps this is all part of going back to the basics. Homeschooling has been a good refreshing for some basic things for me. I realized to my horror that I had forgotten some elements of the multiplication table. How can that happen? So, as I jogged the other day I spent the time rehearsing... "6 times 9 is 54, 7 times 8 is 56... etc." Also, trying to teach Greek to Isaac, Norah and Theo has forced me to rehearse some really important aspects of Biblical Greek that I had learned and forgotten. In some cases I never really learned things well enough to begin with, such as the Greek number system. I am thankful for a chance to rehearse the basic of life and faith.