Chrissie: We have been unplugged for about a week now. If you had a conversation with me before we left, I am sure I would have shared with you my anxieties and fears about being disconnected. My extroverted self really struggled with what that would look like. Would I still feel loved? Valued? What would my purpose be? I know, quite the drama queen I am….. I was often reminded (by yinz) that I wasn’t going to be alone. I was going to be in the woods with 5 of my most favorite people in the world.
I am in the woods with 5 of my most favorite people in the world. Unplugged. I am watching and listening and feeling. I want to constantly take mental snapshots of the little moments that make my heart feel like it is going to explode: Theo’s good morning cuddles by the fire, sitting at the river’s edge watching Stella paint trees, Isaac’s darkened freckles as he listens to how the Lord showed me where his treasured pocket knife was, Norah’s purposeful and confident stride returning from an hour working on their fort in the woods with the dog faithfully trotting beside her. These are moments that I tend to miss because my nose is buried in my phone. I have found that the opposite of what I had feared was my current reality. I am, however, missing the convenience of looking up recipes, checking what time the Pens play and not being able to look up how to fix Matt’s broken starter on his Highlander.
This weekend my parents visited with their Verizon phones. We had a weekend (48 hrs) of hotspot. I spent a bit more time looking at FB that Sunday afternoon. I had to check on how folks were doing, right? The world could not continue spinning if I didn’t post that silly little hipster comic on Daniel Snoke’s wall….. That evening, I went to bed despairing. Not because of anything specifically said or seen on FB, it was because I was drawn back into the drama of worries and fears connected to what’s happening in church, the transition we face in the midst of the change of the academic year, the people that are looking forward to serving His church elsewhere (we will miss those darling Chappells!), the hurt and hard of living in community.
I am so quick to distrust His hand of control and care for His church and children. There was a good bit of repenting that went on in my journal and heart yesterday. I don’t need to worry nor fear where He is leading me, my family, His church. He is in control and my heart needs to trust that more. Would you continue to pray that we would MORE fully rest on His work (in spite and despite us!)? Would you pray that we would not so quickly get sucked into fearing and being anxious about what this upcoming year holds? Would you continue to pray that we would be present with our children and see them rather than be distracted by what is not ours to control?
And then, the kids blog:
What has been one of your favorite things about sabbatical so far?
- Isaac: Well, I really like being out in the woods and using hammers to break open rocks and building forts. I really love playing pool in the basement as well.
- Norah: I really love bike riding with Dad.
- Theo: I love doing pool tournaments. This past weekend, Grandma and PapPap came up to visit us at the cottage in Cooks Forest . Dad and I played pool against PapPap and Isaac. We had tournaments all weekend long. I also really love going up into the woods and building our fort!
- Stella: Going to the beach because we got to spend some sweet time with our Philadelphia cousins.
- Isaac: Well, Sapphira almost caught a groundhog! That was crazy fun to watch and quite surprising. Also, me and Dad went to explore a new hunting area and we saw 8 deer!
- Norah: Grandma taught us how to sew this weekend. She let us use her machine and we made bags!
- Theo: Isaac and I were using a hammer for our fort in the woods and we found some really cool rocks. When we hit them with the hammer, they broke and we found beautiful crystals inside!
- Stella: We got to see our Grandma and Grandpap at the “mansion” in the woods.
- Isaac: I love learning Greek. I have really been enjoying reading about William King (the North Star). I also really like learning how to play the guitar. I also really like after school when we have recess for the rest of the day and physical education. There’s nothing I don’t like about homeschooling.
- Norah: I really love studying Greek. I really do not like the drawings of naked men in the Greek language books. (One Greek book illustrated the ancient Olympics in greater detail than was expected. As you may know, the ancient Olympics were viewed only by men, and the athletes competed nude.)
- Theo: I really like the PE (physical education) afterward. That is: running up into the woods and playing outside! I do not like math.
- Stella: I really like the thing we are doing right now. I don’t like when we have to work. (What kind of work to you have to do?? ) Everything, except this.
- Isaac: I miss not knowing where everything is. I miss all the people that I know! We are a family all alone in the woods in a little cabin (don’t be offended Mom!!)
- Norah: I miss my friends from school and church and Alfred (our kitty cat!)
- Theo: I miss the electronics. (Our devices – and games.) I also miss my comfortable bed.
- Stella: Yes. I miss Coco. ("Coco" is a special toy that she recently got for her birthday.)